Just me, all me

Hehe,
Alright......not just breakfast but I wanted to write about the coolest ever breakfast I had while in Toronto.

I invited one of my high school classmates and my favouritest high school teacher out for breakfast and it happened. It was so cool....because I hadn't seen my teacher in probably 10 years.....and had only recently got back in touch with him....he was way more then my teacher in high school....more like a mentor and a coach......and probably a bit of a parental figure.....when I decided to go to grad school I remember thinking....wow I wish I could tell Mr. Kelly...he would be so proud....that kind of parental figure.

Neither Perry, high school friend, nor I could figure out what to call Mr. Kelly....so we blundered between John and Mr. Kelly the time we were there.....he signs his e-mail JJK to us....and well, that would just be weird to say.

But besides that we had a great talk and a lot of fun....aside from the realization that most everyone in our graduating class is married...and most with children.....except for Perry and I.....and after beng amid family and the pressures and questions of engagement or marriage.....it was an unsettling discovery.

I love staying in touch with people.....but it is so hard to do....it takes so much time and effort....but I am certainly very happy to have met with my classmate and teacher.....I believe the plan is to do it annually....and since I am the planner....I guess I will make sure it gets done :)

Happy New Year!!

You know what I hate, being censored.

Here I am all excited writing a comment on someones blog...perhaps the second best comment I have ever written.....nothing beats the aboriginal one I made a couple months ago....and *BLAM* this blogger does not except anonymus posters.......I was silenced.
Now....I know many of you are thinking...just register....but then I would have to spend 15 minutes trying to find a hndle that wasn't already used....and then a password.....and then ....after I post I would immediatly forget my handle....oh I have done it before....and then the issue is....that it probably would never except my e-mail address again...because it would say I already exist.

You see the issue :)

I put my name at the end of each post......which I think is quite identifying.

How many Steph's are there?? hmmmm lots eh?? well how many cute witty Steph's are there?? Thats right....Just me....ALL ME!

This is mostly just a creative way to let my friend now I can't post comments because I don't have an account.

But it was fun...wasn't it??

SO,
if you know me well you know I have parinoia/anxiety issues.....here is an example of what this can do to you...

I have been having trouble with one of the schools I am to be working in this year. Today was my first program there (and I did it even though I am on a stat holiday)...I get there all anxiety ridden....get shown to the gym and then stand at the front of the school waiting for Dar, the yoga instructor. I wait, and wait....then I freak out and start searching for her number...calling random things.....it is now 12:12 and we were supposed to start at 12:05....the funny thing is this whole time I am aware that her car is outside...but think since I didn't see Dar it must be a look a like car.....there are a million silver cavalers out there. So then I get the vice principal to unlock a computer so I can go on line and get her phone number....which I call and leave a very worried message......then I try to find her home number....and then the principal (the man who intimidates me...through no fault of his own.....just some random internal decision on my part) walks in and says "we are all waiting for you in the gym" I say "Is Dar there?" he says "yes"

So I sigh relief and walk to the gym...realizing I must have missed her walking in......and once again made myself look bad...
oh the world is full of self fufilling prophecy.

I am wondering about baths this morning....
I love taking baths, it is one of my favouritest things :) Although....they are rarely successful.....and it suddenly occured to me....maybe I am the only one with this problem.

You see....I like to sit in the bath and read while being warmed.....not being sweated out or feeling like I am in a lukewarm pond. But this is hard to achieve....either I have overheated the water and need to abort mission early or I feel all gross and too cool and opt to get out of my supposed relaxing oasis.

Any comments?? Suggestions??

So...the question of the day is how many times can you re-start something?? I guess it is all relative.....today I am curious abut running...again!

I joined this boot camp....somehow I crawl out of bed at 5:45 once a week and get downtown for a cardio / pilates session. Today we ran...I haven't run in few months....but it was wonderful....it is amazing how much easier it is with thirty less pounds attached to my body.....it was a run/power walk and I really wanted to just keep running......so now I am tempted...to run again.

I just can't figure out if I will just give it up again...or if I will continue.......but maybe the end result doesn't matter???

(BTW...Pilates is my new bestest friend :))

I feel like we are being desensitized....like the entire world are now mega under reactors.......because......I can't figure out why no one is panicking.....and screaming WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON??

I guess my intro could be in reference to so many things going on in our world at this moment but for the case of this post....I am talking about vegetables. And I am not one of those crazy hippy only eat organic types...but suddenly this has become tempting.

Does anyone know what botulism is?? or even how to spell it?? I sure don't....but am a little concerned that it has infected those who drink carrot juice......even more ironic is the fact that when I picture people drinking said carrot juice I picture them with a side of fresh produce worrshiping and loving their bodies. Then bam....in intensive care paralized....and we all coninue doing our day to day routine like this isn't something to be insanely worried about...

An then we have the e'coli infected spinich and lettuce......is that not insane?? What is going on in our world....will we shortly have to boil all our produce before eating??

So...the carrot juice company stated the two people in toronto (who are now on ventalators in intensive care) did not refrigerate their juice properly. The two infected countered that they had followed the proper refridgeration. My first though was of course, if they are on ventalators how could they respond?? My second thought was that if you don't refrigerate carrot juice it should definetly not put you at risk of paralysis......it just doesn't make sense.

Thats all I got for now :)

But thought I would post here in case everyone has yet to discover the joy of touchmy belly....

specifically mydear man....read September 20th......somebody should tell him what *real* power is made of.

http://touchmybelly.blogspot.com/

Unfortunatly I gave my copy away but, everyone should read...




It is amazing, sad, exciting and endearing all at the same time :)

I LOVED IT :)

here is a cool free website for any of you who are looking to shed some pounds...or just wanting to be more aware of your caloric intake etc :)

http://www.fitday.com

BTW I didn't find it myself....it came via the Queen of Light and Joy :)

http://thequeenoflightandjoy.blogspot.com/

Happy Monday :)

1. Although it really kinda looks like I was jumping from high it was really off arock.

2. Mike didn't really push me...unknown to me he fixed the shot to make it look as though he pushed me.

All these comments are making me feel tres guilty...I make my bf look like a bad guy...and he isn't....he is super sweet :)

k ladies....just when you all thought my boyfriend was the sweetest in the world....the truth is out...

He's a nudger........go near no cliffs with him at your side.....no curbs either.

Be afraid....very afraid ;)

One day I hope to have a photo blog of me doing rock on poses in various places....

I think it is very becoming

WHose that sexy guy doing all the work in the back??

I just found a bunch of my mysteriously missing CD's....Reality Bites Soundtrack anyone??

I am currently adding these CD's to my itunes.....what a good day.....new shirt...new earrings......new (again CD's) woo hoo

yay Tuesday :)

Alright,
I am putting it in writing......I am working on becoming a better....smaller version of myself.....today is day 9 :).....so far I am less 5 1/2 pounds just.......to go....hehehe...not going to disclose that much about myself.......but perhaps I will post my final results and then you will all know the embaressing truth....when it is just an embaressing memory.

So far I am sooooooo proud of myself.....but I think my lack of bad food cravings may be due to chest cold....I believe I am so full of gross stuff that I have no room for food :)

So far I have passed a million tests...such as:

cake (chocolate)
beer (cheap.....but beer nonetheless)
pasta salad....yummy
ketchup chips (because who doesn't love ketchup chips??)
homemade cookies (I think I walked by them 13.6 times today at work)

I am not cheating at all....because I don't want to jump on that slippery slope.

I really want to reach my mysterious goal weight (not a mystery to me)....I get about 10 pounds above it...and feel so beautiful and wonderful that I stop and indulge....I just want to be done losing.....forever.....and then I can wrry about maintaining.

So hopefully.......a skinny cute me will enter into her 30th year this November :)

I was listening to the CBC and they were challenging us to remember a bad job from our past.....it reminded me of this...

After having to leave a job suddenly I got a new job right away with a marketing company. The job was being one of those sample type ladies in the supermarkets...but with a twist. I was a Tide girl....not just any tide girl....but and Ultra Tide with bleach tide girl. Did you know that Ultra Tide with Bleach kills 99.9% of germs in your clothing??? "Here let me show you"

So i would stand in supermarkets with my lab coat and glasses on and my little tide booth.......my gear....a little experiment....two bleach free type dish clothes.....a black light and....what else but glow germ.

So....On one cloth I would sprinkle how many 'glow' germs would be on clothes not washed and then on the other cloth I would sprinkle glow germ on the clothes washed with Ultra Tide with Bleach which would of course be 99.9% germ free....so I would sprinkle on .1 % of germ. Then the unsuspecting customer would approach and I would wow them with my demonstration and then give them a 50 cent coupon and watch them buy, buy, buy. So...it was bad.....but I was the best tide scientist...I was the last one left...they just kept me working....

so if that is not bad enough...all my little display fit into a 4 by 2 1/2 foot box.....that I had to carry...and because I lived in toronto and didn't drive I had to carry it on subways and street cars....sometimes a very far distance....and so I got this little trolly thing...and wrapped the box on with a bungee cord...but sometimes it would un wrap and jump off the trolley and into a puddle and I would be soaked.

A very bad job!!

So....Mike's aunt died...and it makes me sad...and brings back that oh so dreaded feeling...I always say I don't handle death well...but does anyone??

What I find perhaps most intereesting is rituals of saying goodbye...whether it is a service, a party....a little church...or...well whatever....but it is probably because I am a sociologist...so it is my job....

My memories of my family rituals is church...then the cemetry...then a wake...which was just a little family get together with oh so yummy treats.....

Lately I have heard a lot of bad mouthing regarding the catholic funeral service...mostly because a lot of people had exposure when the police officer got killed in that drinking and driving accident. People find it inpersonal...and figured that there is no way the family would have wanted that sort of service. It was just a big show since he was a cop. But I think.....there is something comfortable and very familiar about the mass...for those church goers and having something nice and expected may give you time to really reflect and honour the life of the person who passed.....and plus...usually there is a nice...more personal shindig later.

I think I find cremation weird...which is an odd discovery I had tonight...because I know that either way you just become one with the earth eventually...I think it is the whole burning thing....but perhaps it is my unfamiliararity.

Finally...I think that funerals should be free...and paid for by our tax dollars....that way no matter who you are and how you lived...you get equal treatment in death...and I think that is an amazing way for the world to honour the contributions of each and every one of us.....and it will take away the financial burden for the family....it would be aweful to have the financial strain in a time of such grief.

Alright.....enough of the sad somber thoughts....but I just got to thinking ...and thought I would write it down and share.

hehe...I just wrote the last post knowing I wanted to call it I am a cheater and a quitter but for the life of me I couldn't remeber what I had cheated on....but now I remember....so here goes...

I am a cheater....

I cheated on someone.....and I thought I was above that....he doesn't knopw yet.....but I got sick of waiting by the phone....I got sick of spending the extra time on my hair...I got sick f it all...

I knew there was someone out there who could make me feel better....but I was nervous to meet someone new...you never know if they will be as good...because really...could anyone be as good??

I finally gave up on waiting and called him and found out he was on vacation......it was the final straw

I cheated.....and I loved it....and I think for him and I it is over.

Good bye Michael......Hello Jessica...my new hair stylest :)

I can't believe it...I just quit something.
I thought it was ingrained in life that whatever I shall start I shall finish....(even if it is icky chinese cinema that seemed oh so romantic when I read the course description) but I just quit something....

my running clinic (I haven't even told anyone)

You see it is horribly disappointing...only three people joined...maybe more but other have also quit.

The two other girls are fast and run together....

the teacher runs with them...

and I run alone...and I am not learning anything...just running lone....and tryng to keep up...which makes me extra tired :(

So.....I quit ...

I am wondering if I should call and complain....I am not sure...but so far I just quit.

You are the first to know.

Just read something about memories...and thought I would share two uber cool moments.....hmmm now that I think about it...maybe three...

1) When at Mike's family reunion saw old school plasticy metal (I don't know which one) blue cooler from like 1978.....we had that,....and it flooded back all sorts of fun camping memories with my family as a kid...I love those moments :)

2) Went to Rotary Fest this weekend...they had outdoor music and local original rock at the second stage. Although I have no personal musical skill (except for the incredible ability to memorize for life all songs I ever liked) I used to be a little involved in the music scene in peterborough. I put on the big yearly music festival at Trent University....so...while enjoying the performances I spent time reflecting about my music festivals. They were incredible amounts of work....and by the end I felt like half the world was mad about something I had done...but there is nothing like having a thousand people enjoying a day that you put on....I have some pictures...and the t-shirts ;)

3) We went for a quick shop today...and mike could only find one t-shirt...and of course there was a deal if you got two....so I got one...and I got a strawberry shortcake one...I can smell those little dolls as I write this (well the memory of the smell) I loved those toys :)

I love memories :)

HAPPY MEMORIES EVERYONE